I recently purchased the new issue of Magnolia Journal magazine. It’s a slice of Southern I like to dive into every now and then for recipes and decor ideas. Who doesn’t live Chip and Joanna anyway?
In the recent issue there was an article that caught my attention. It was about an Japanese technique of repairing pottery with gold called Kintsugi. They literally fill the cracks and put them back together with gold.
The repair method was also born from the Japanese feeling of mottainai, which expresses regret when something is wasted, as well as mushin, the acceptance of change. Often the piece looks even more beautiful than the original.
This got me thinking about the cracks we have in our hearts and lives. You know what I’m talking about, the moments when life happens that just gut you from the inside and once you heal from it you feel less than what you were before.
Like you’ve been forever changed.
Sometimes we have more than one crack running through us and sometimes we’re flat out shattered that you wonder if you’ll ever be whole again.
The first crack I ever had is from earliest memory in life. When I think back on that littler girl her memories are of hospitals, chemo, and colostomy bags. A child should never have to know what those things are or worry that at any moment the person they love could die. My grandmother, who was the light of our family suffered from colon cancer the moment I was born. I loved this woman so much and even at a young age I knew she was dying so I stayed with her all day and every single night. Throughout the day, as she was napping I would wake her just to make sure she was still breathing. Depending on how medically induced she was at the time determined how long it would take me to wake her.
When she finally did pass the crack it left on my life was devastating. For once I was able to process what I had seen and experienced along with the grief. I became very afraid of everything and death was constantly on my mind.
Maybe you have experienced something in your life that’s left cracks- death, abuse, relationships, friendships. what if instead of allowing those cracks to take up our lives with a gaping hole we start to fill them with gold.
Gold could be adding something of value to your life. Travel, starting the business, going for the promotion, volunteering, being the best momma you can be., Volunteering, or whatever it is that’s going to light you up the most.
The one thing that Design Your Life stands for is that you get the choice to decide how you want to feel and what you want for your life. Decide what you want to fill your cracks with and do it.
I want to know in the comments what you’re going to fill your life with starting today.